MERRY CHRISTMAS To all !

I am looking forward to spending Christmas with my family,but this whole situation make me feel worthless.and depressed. Usually I am pretty optimistic,but this year had not been a high point for me.
Since April I have been in constant back pain of varying degrees ,I tried to work for several months,tried to keep mind over fact but it just kept increasing and in Sept I could no longer do that.
Pain affects the whole scope of your life,and Workmens Comp,insurance companies and employers are just out to try to make you feel like a fake and a fool.
THAT IS NOT WHAT I AM ABOUT!
So I got those

WORKERS COMP BLUES!

Letter In The Mail

Today I got a letter form Workers Comp board stating that I have a hearing January 12,they want to terminate my benefits,{So far they have only paid my medical bills.even though they sent me a letter from my employer saying I would be paid)
I still have so much pain,it seems impossible to believe there is an end to this because they are denying responsibility.
Yes I am overweight and old,and I am feeling much older since I fell and was injured AT WORK Pain makes you old,you can't do the things you want,and you have too much time to think about the emotional strain you are under.
But enough of this, I still have those WORKERS COMP BLUES.

Well another week has gone by,and I was unable to get the steroid injection because my bleeding time was prolonged a little. So I have to reschedule,but on the bright side.my cousin took me because of our car situation. My family has been wonderful,I would have been sunk if they had not been there for me. It is great to have a loving supportive family.
Of course the pain is not going away, even though I am cured per the IME MD,even though two other MDS say no.
So here I am again with those WORKERS COMP BLUES

I haven't been on for awhile. So much has happened. Now they are saying this is all degenerative disease. it doesn't matter that I fell or that I was not hurting before I fell. And I actually tried to work through this until the pain got so bad I could not tolerate it. Never mind that over the last thirty some years I have lifted hundreds of patients,pushed heavy carts,etc. I understand that that is my job,which by the way I love my job. I have always liked working in Health Care.
It is not the actual job that is my complaint,it is the treatment of skilled workers to make way for the new inexperienced workers.
So you can see why I have those WORKERS COMP BLUES